I can

Waves on water 

Road to slaughter

I can feel the frequencies

Empathy is killing me

Vomit feelings

Mind wave dealings

I can sense the cracks in earth

I knew you before your birth

Screaming for me

and silently storming

I can know before you go

In my blood the ebb and flow

Fauna screams

While flora dreams

I can soak up all the ink

Feeling death, shudder to think

Hiding from you

Feeling you're due

I can feel the frequencies 

Empathy is killing me

Parade

Lest we forget 

Left you in another decade 

Rot deep down

Flakey ashes in the ground 

If we regret 

Out of nothing that we were made

You wear a crown

Over blinders, over frowns

This is what you get

Flood and mud on your bitter parade

Kick you when you're down

Choke your lungs and start to drown

Sleeves

Your sleeve is warm and frayed 

Holding onto it is gravity

Anchoring me to the earth

Old red, blue, gray

Softer, softest

Your hair is so careless

It's your armor, your shield 

Hiding in it saves you

Brown strands, long curls

Caring, but stranded

The spot in your neck

Where whispers are audible

Breathing into it I smile

Hidden skin above your collar

Private, but not secret

Your voice is firm, yet it shakes 

In your familiar sweet rage 

I mimic with my contralto

Never reaching your feelings

Feel it, I feel it 

You're fading, I'm longing

Where eyes open to sun

And there, I leave you

Soft sleeves, sweet voice

Clinging to it, thinking of it

Words I Love: New Year's Prayer by Jeff Buckley

Fall in light, fall in light. Fall in light, fall in light
Feel no shame for what you are
As you now are in your blood
Fall in light

Feel no shame for what you are
Feel no shame for what you are
Feel it as a waterfall
Fall in light
Fall in light, fall in light, Fall in light
Fall in light, fall in light, fall in light
Grow in light

Stand absolved behind your electric chair, dancing
Stand absolved behind your electric chair, dancing
Past the sound within the sound
Past the voice within the voice

Leave your office
Run past your funeral
Leave your home, car
Leave your pulpit
Join us in the streets where we
Join us in the streets where we
Don't belong, don't belong
You and the stars
Throwing light

Fall, fall
Fall in light, fall in light. fall in light
Fall in light, fall in light fall in light
Grow in light

Thorns

Anemic body

Restless and torn

Ripping it slowly

Walking through thorns

Leaving a trail

Of blood behind her

Finds her way back

Scars leave a reminder

Beautiful roses

Soft, pretty killers

Fragrant and deadly

Perfume made of her

Anemic body

Draining and pale

Thorns in her body

Pink porcelain shell

Night

Motionless, just still

Fog burns away from the moon

Yesterday dies easy

Lies deteriorate like flowers

Hope, just dying

Petals shrivel and decay

Putrid smell rises

Flies do their death dance 

Nothing, just darkness

Stars are stones caught in ink

Dimmer, die, fade

Night drowns you in black

This Far Down

Light dissolves
This far down
Into the cold
The unknown

No more warm sand
No more sun in my eyes

Breath runs out
This far down
Out of my lungs
Filling with water

No more oxygen
No more air to keep me alive

Things

Burn inside me
A phantom, a liar
I try to feed you
With things and more things

You're dead
Like I want you
They told me to make you
They walk in a line

I don't listen to you
There are more urgent voices
Alive, I'm alive
And you're dead

Blind to the clones
Who scream in my ears
Stab me with crosses
Blood from their slaughter

Give me what's expected
And die more each day
Take what you're given
Raining down over me
 
Burn all the art
And eat all the books
Fill your belly
With things and more things

They float out to sea
With your forgotten body
My ashes orbit
With nothing inside

Flake

Red, red flower

Nearly 10 years later

Crumble down, fade

Petals turn to ash

Wilt, sad flower

Life blooms without her

Dry out, flake

Falling on the ground

Where's my flower

Floating by the water 

Drown her, die

Next to muddy banks

Red, red flower

Losing all your power

Stained with faded ink

On her rough, old skin

Violet from my Petals

Yellow

Yellow like the lights behind my eyelids

Dancing there like memories of sunburns

Clean and bright with a smell like soap

In the shadows of childhood recollection

I found your ghost there waiting

Still tangible and opaque, so alive

Dusting the corners of my mind

Sweeping cobwebs from behind my eyes

I flew over you and you waived

Swimming in ferns and living in grass

What weighed me down lifted away

Antigravity and no real sense of time

Your words were like lobotomies

So I scraped away the cancer

It was black as tattoos on my left arm

Then you whispered that you'd be alright

I untied the string that kept you on earth

When I went back there you were gone

Asleep I wait for monuments of the past

Awake I know that things aren't as they were

Breaking Above the Ground

Roots reach down through dirt

They're attached to my spine

Stems break through ground

Petals reach toward sky

I'm curled tightly, safely

Under moss and forest life

Nourished by wet soil

It's in my lungs, I'm alive 

Tree branches die slowly

Leaves fall as my umbrella

Winter forces me to sleep

Deep inside the cold ground

My eyes open in Spring

Flowers pump blood to my heart

Birds wake me with voices

It's Earth's sweet alarm

Body uncurls and sprouts

Hands touch the clear air

Breaking above the ground

Earth grows its new layers

New skin burns in light

Tender from birth in the dark

The bright, newborn day

Welcomes with all of its warmth

The Crow

Outside the window

The crow begs me to fly

Over the city and 

Pressed against stars

The blackest of feathers

Overlapping the moon

Under the orbits

Of souls caught in time

Above the cold ocean

Hypnotizing me with waves

To a land where my heart

Is planted in earth

Before the sun wakes

Wings soften my fall

Into the city with

Lights burning bright

Ahead of violet dawn

My eyes give reflections

Glitter with the beauty 

Illuminating my mind

Back to the sky

The crow fades into black

As the moon surrenders

To daylight once more

Lovely Scars

No light 

To turn

The stones

Into stars

Black as ink

Tattoos you

Leaving such

Lovely scars

Woman with a Flower

Woman with a flower

Her eyes start to die

Petals fall in her lap 

She misses her smile

Woman with a flower

The bud starts to wilt

Smelling stale and moldy

Like the soul in her head

Woman with a flower

The stem bends away

Heavy from the rot

She forgot to give water

Woman with a flower

Her eyes glaze and burn

Staring into nothing

Her heart's an obligation

Woman with a flower

Life grows around her still

Bursting and yelling but

She pretends she can't hear

Words I love: Babydoll by Cat Power

Baby

Black, black, black is all you see

Don't you want to be free?

Baby 

Red, red fire is what you breathe

Don't you want to be clean?

Honey, the shape you're in 

Is worth every dime you spent

Baby Doll

Turn out the lights 

Set yourself on fire 

Say goodnight

Pin your hair up

A real cool time

Baby 

Black, black, black is all you see

Don't you want to be free?

Ride My Melt

Beyond where the line

That divides from the sky

Ride my melt into life

That refuses to die

A road through the hills

That leads me to air

Lungs wait for freedom

To breathe in and out there

The eyes in the trees

That watch me and burn

Tears drip as rain

Turn to streams as I yearn

Beyond where the line

That divides from the sky

Ride my melt into life

That demands me to fly

Deteriorate

You watched me deteriorate
Into molecules in your hand
Laughing at my struggle
To find somewhere to land

You left me on the street
Bleeding from my eyes
Reaching out for bandages
Filling the road with cries

You piled up the bodies
To build a bigger throne
Climbing higher still
But you will die alone

Little Heart

I met you in the road
Your voice was quiet
Just begging to be heard

I couldn't leave you there
Your eyes were so kind
They were looking into the sky

I saw the beauty of your life
Your soul as heavy as mine
Just looking for a way

I loved you today and always
Your dark hair shone with sun
And your little heart beating with life

I gave you to the grass
Your body was with the Earth
Just to give you a soft bed

I see you in the clouds
Your love mixes with rain
To shower us with your little spirit

I love your little heart
Your beautiful little life
All I wanted was for you to be free

Blood

My eyes are open to the
Blood that swallows me
And chokes my lungs when
I breathe in the air

They killed all the living
And left me to die with a
Hope that anything I love
Will ever seem to matter

Murdering lovers and
Marrying hatred and
Eating their kills before
Preaching their thoughts

Skeletons fight for
The lives of the living
In long-forgotten graveyards
That we covered with roads

Seeping

Blue-eyed pain
Under blood-stained gold
No words to leave
For red eyes left behind

Seeping through
The floor under your body
Soul only a little
Ways above our heads

Careless words
Pulsed through clumsy fingers
Before they fell
In red drops on the ground

Crumble Away

It's 3 a.m.

The sound is breaking silence

Awaking me

To the world's constant violence

Under the sheet

Hearts stop and wait for rebirth

Releasing me

New eyes to view the Earth

It's 7 a.m.

Sun waking to the news of

One less blind soul

Floating closely above us

Under the moon

Still present in the sky

Crying for me

Wondering why we all have to die

Crumble away

Into the soil and grass

Forget me not

For what I told you last

It's 10 a.m.

Night is a faded memory

Leave it to be

The conclusion that happened finally

Sky

Open arms

Open eyes

Pressed against

The clouds

Feel sky

Feel sun

Floating away 

From Earth

High above

High alone

Soaring toward 

The blue

You are free

You are alive

Swimming in 

The clouds

Orbit Earth

Orbit life

Stars above 

The sky

Black above

Black below

Even Sun

Will die

Life on Earth

Life in the sky

Know you're free

Know your rights

Open arms

Open eyes

Under sky

All alive

Papillon

Papillon, elle crie

Pour la vie

Elle veut avoir

Elle attend

Pour la soleil

Elle sait que c'est là

Papillon, elle cherche

Pour la fleur

Cela donnera sa vie 

Elle mort

Pour la liberté 

Elle croit qu'elle mérite 

Under Stars

The sky begged me to sleep
Under stars
While the trees
Looked away

It's night
And dark is coming
But somehow the souls
Found their way

The graveyard cradled bones
Under black
While the stones
Guarded the saved

It's silent
And death is coming
But somehow I'm not
I'm not afraid

The forgotten asked me to remember
Under dirt
While the clouds
Killed the stars

It's death
But not forever
And somehow the sun
Breaks through the ground

Lotus Flower

Lotus flower
Float away
Dying on water
Finding a grave

Petals wilt
Feed the fish
Death into life
Digested matter

Born again
New lotus flower
Breathe air
Finding a place

Petals blush
Water soaks life
Nourishing roots
Attaching to Earth

Blooming alive
Into the sun
Drinking in water
Floating on blue

Lotus flower
Fade away
Dying on water
Marking a grave

Get Away From Your Home

Get away from your home
And leave your porch behind
It's not dying to be alone
In the quiet of life

There's a road etched through grass
But the path is quite hidden
From eyes that are trained
To turn from the light

Roots grow where the servants will feed you
Food full of maggots and bits of sour trash
Shackles in silver promise abundance and riches
For those who will kill everything that's inside

Get away from your home
And leave your porch behind
It's not dying to give up
To save your own life

Puzzling Pieces

Behind calm eyes there's a gun ready to fire
Words from a pistol that she loaded with care
Swallowing pills in the early morning violet
Last night's dreams that are haunting her still

Scratches her arms
Just to keep her hands busy
Pulling her hair
When there's nothing to do

"Be calm" she says
To nobody who listens
Only herself
Who is only who cares

She's crumbling down into puzzling pieces
Sleeping in cars just to keep her alive
Screaming lungs out and filling the spaces
Feeding herself poison that the doctor prescribed

Under careless hair is a mind that is wasted
Knowledge and facts that are dying inside
The horizon pulls her away from her fear
Beyond the line that divides from the sky

Words I love: Within You Without You by The Beatles

We were talking about the space between us all
And the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth, then it's far too late, when they pass away
We were talking about the love we all could share
When we find it, to try our best to hold it there with our love
With our love, we could save the world, if they only knew

Try to realize it's all within yourself
No one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small
And life flows on within you and without you

We were talking about the love that's gone so cold
And the people who gain the world and lose their soul
They don't know, they can't see, are you one of them?

When you've seen beyond yourself then you may find
Peace of mind is waiting there
And the time will come when you see we're all one
And life flows on within you and without you

Girl

Sweet, empty girl
Budding with new ideas
Awaking today
To be who you aren't

Small, golden girl
Bursting with new surmises
Reading today
About who made the world

Ignorant girl
Bleeding from cuts and bruising
Crying at night
To mourn what once was

Forgotten girl
Blending into the shadows
Screaming for love
To make her feel whole

A Life All My Own

Torn apart pieces
And pieces of parents
Sewn to my body
With careless, frayed thread

Memories and scars and
Forgotten places
Familiar breath
On my neck, strangles me

Pictures of blood
And expected achievements
Guiding me slowly
To faraway seas

Grudges and guilt and
Priceless advices
Pumps blood in my heart
And fires me, I quit

Fathers with guns
And mothers with poison
Chasing their children
To be scared of their seeds

Choking on stories of
Experiences past us
Shedding my skin
Just to feel more alive

Eternal orbits
And wandering faces
Saying goodnight to
Strangers we know

Petals from flowers
And love from the moonlight
Opens my eyes
To a life all my own

How Lovely Life Is

How lovely life is
When it begins again
Lungs purged of dust
An end to suffocation

Breathing damp air
New spirit born from ashes
Coming back as fire again
To burn all the evils

I killed all my friends
To make my life easy
And I quit the sleep walk
To hide from the soulless

How lovely life is
When it begins again
Head shed my hair
An end to the play

Drinking hot water
To feel I can breathe
Orbiting forever
To live this short life

I left all my belongings
To fly to the sun
I cut all the threads
From forced spinnerettes

How lovely life is
When it begins again
Moved to the water
To be certain I'm alive

Violet From My Petals

The sky was bleeding orange
Stars waking for night
I pulled off petals of violet
And left them to grow

Night swallowed Earth
Damp and dark, no light
I walked to the forest
And peered from the edge

Midnight arrived slowly
Borne from dense trees of green
Moss gave me a bed
To rest skin and bones

Violet from my petals grew
Into the birth of the morning
I greeted the sun
And let eyes burn with light

Stars fell down into Earth
Forest bursting with colors
The ground opened to show me
My beautiful, free life

The Emerald

Light reflects
Off of the emerald
To guide me
Lotus of blue
In a warm sea of red

Glitter green
With ripe plants
To feed me
Pull off petals
Of sage and deep green

Salty air
Erodes not the emerald
To breathe life
Into hopeless eyes
On a wet forest ground

Moss grows
On the rocks
And on my body
Emerald green
And dripping with life

Life reflects
Off of the emerald
To guide me
To air I can breathe
In a suffocating expanse

I'm Still Alive

Grass grows through my toes
As I melt into the Earth
She created the Sun
To sprout me to life

Eyes flower toward the sea
The salt scrubs my scars
And pumps my blood blue
Through my living heart

My insides stay glued
In a box near the water
She put it all there
To sustain my life

Taking some blood
Out of me to the ocean
To mix with the water
Of the Earth as it lives 

Waves wash my skin
To clean all the cuts
Stinging a reminder
That I'm still alive